Thursday, May 15, 2008

By "Popular" Request

Because so many people have left comments requesting recipes -ok, maybe two did that -I decided to go on a search and destroy mission here and find the recipe I wrote down a few years back for the Ham and Bean Potpie mentioned in my last post. I may have mentioned this recipe a time or two before because it is a favorite with my kids and it's the one I generally make to take to church pot luck dinners too. (Mostly because I rarely come home with more than maybe two-three tablespoons of the stuff left over and I really hate dealing with certain types of leftovers that somehow manage to get lost in the fridge until they have begun to grow a really think coating of green-gray fur, if you know what I mean.)


This particular dish is one that was served every Thursday as the dinner special at the truckstop where I worked from 1989 to 1991. I don't know what the origins are for this recipe but I'm guessing it is probably a Pennsylvania Dutch type dish. If you notice I didn't give amounts of the onions, celery, carrots to cook with the ham, as this varies for me depending on the size of the ham I ham using. It can also vary with individual tastes too as some people don't like a heavy onion flavor, others may not want or only use a smattering of the carrots and celery. It is pretty much an individual thing there. The same can be applied to the "dumplings" or noodles -whether you want to use more or less, it's up to you to determine how you like that.

It really isn't a difficult dish to prepare -a little time consuming here and there -but the flavor is well worth the effort. This recipe will make enough to fill a five quart (not 5 gallon as I had originally stated in my earlier post) casserole dish. I use the large oval shaped visions casserole dish -with a nice big lid to it too that makes transporting it a whole lot easier too.

If you want to make a smaller batch to try it out, you'll have to adjust your portions of ingredients as you see fit -again, it's a very individualistic dish and can be adjusted for a smaller portion or easily increased for a very large, large pan full too if you wish!

Try it. If you like bean soup, I'll bet you - and your family - will love it!

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Ham and Bean Pot pie

2 large cans Northern white beans

piece of smoked boned ham –usually about 2-3 pounds, give or take.

Chopped celery

Chopped onion

Chopped carrots

Parsley

Dash of celery seed

Salt and pepper

Place ham in large soup pot and cover with water.

Add celery, onion and carrots, seasonings.

Bring to boil and let slow cook then for 1-2 hours.

Pour Northern white beans in 4-5 quart casserole dish.

Remove ham and cut into small pieces or shred. Mix ham into beans.

Dip carrots, onion and celery from broth and add to beans and ham.


For Noodles:

Mix 2 ¾ cups flour, ¾ cup milk, 1 tablespoon vegetable oil and 2 eggs together. Let mixture set for about 5-8 minutes.

Section dough into 2 or 3 piece and roll each out.

Slice rolled dough lengthwise, then cut slices into small squares or triangles.

Drop these pieces of dough into broth brought to a boil and cook until dough pieces rise to top of broth.

Remove dough from broth and add to bean mixture.

Spoon broth then over beans and dough until dough pieces are pretty well covered.

Bake at 350 for 1 ½ to 2 hours or until mixture is somewhat thickened but not hard.

Stir mixture from time to time to keep noodles from getting hard as they bake.

Monday, May 12, 2008

Wonderful Weekend!

After feeling really euphoric upon arriving back home Friday from our trip to Pittsburgh - and the grand tour Mandy and I sort of accidentally took when we got lost in the Steel City -I have to say the rest of the weekend, for the most part was all very nice too!

Saturday, I made a 5 gallon casserole of ham and bean pot-pie (with the homemade noodle/dumpling like things -two smaller dishes of an old Swedish favorite called "Panakaka" (it's sort of like a plain baked custard) and Mandy made a small orange-cranberry-nut cake to take out to the pot luck supper held Saturday evening at our church. The purpose behind this event was to give the parishioners a chance to meet and greet Pastor Carrie Anderson, from Wisconsin, the candidate we have for the pastoral opening in our church.

Mandy had briefed me a couple weeks ago after she got to meet Pastor Carrie at the church council meeting during which the council interviewed Pastor Carrie, and they then offered her the position on behalf of the church. She accepted the offer then which puts things in gear now to where this past Sunday, she did the service and sermon at our church after which the congregation then voted whether to accept her or not. Thankfully, the vote came down to 79 in favor and 3 not in favor of her so it was a pretty overwhelming vote by the membership. She now has asked to have a little time to think a bit more on this move, what it will entail for her, etc., to pray over her decision too and she will notify the congregation before this coming Friday as to her final acceptance - or not - of our church's offer. And I will definitely be saying prayers of my own, crossing my fingers, holding the rabbit's foot too maybe - whatever it takes -but hoping very much she will decide to come and lead our parish forward. Can you tell I was very highly impressed with her ability, her personality, etc.?

Sunday morning was quite an experience for Mandy and me as we had to take both the kids to church with us! The reason being Bill went to some kind of auction yesterday and normally, we just let Kurtis sleep in as long as he wants on Sunday morning and Bill is generally at home with him so we don't have to disturb the little fellow and deal with trying to teach him some behavior and manners with respect to being in church - and QUIET too -for at least an hour's time!

We sat in the same pew as our neighbors - sisters, Shirley and Kate and Kate's daughter, Karen. Maya decided right off the bat that she did NOT want to sit between Mandy and me but she wanted to sit half-way between Shirley and me. THis meant there was a fairly large gap of space then between her and me and her and Shirley too. Prior to the beginning of the service, Maya was busy coloring on some papers she had with her but when it came time for the opening hymn, as we all stood to sing and she realized everyone was standing, Maya hopped up and stood with everyone. She then reached for the large green hymnal and started leafing through it, which I thought was a nice gesture on her part. About a quarter through the first stanza of the hymn, I glanced down at her and was shocked to see she had the hymnal open to the very song we were singing! (After services, I asked Shirley if she maybe had helped her and opened the book for her to that page but she said she hadn't so we figured that she had seen the Hymn number on the board in front of the church and since she can read numbers fine and dandy, had managed to find that page in the hymnal.) After that, she then wanted to follow along in the liturgy of the service and was fumbling for the correct page number there that Pastor Carrie had announced, so I leaned down and found the page for her and then pointed out to her which line of the liturgy the congregation was on at that time. She again really amazed me and her Mom very much as she tried her level best to follow along with the service. She doesn't "read" in the full sense of the word but she can pick up enough words here and there that she could actually follow the service which we both feel is really an amazing feat for a 4 year old child to do! (Her old sister, who is 16, still can't or won't do that!)

After church, we stopped and picked up the Sunday paper so I could get my weekly crossword puzzle fix with the Sunday puzzle, then we all took a little nap too while the scalloped potatoes and ham I was fixing for supper cooked away in the oven.

The older daughter, Carrie, her fiance, Robert and older grandson - my Prince, Alex, came by, bringing me a new pair of the knee length casual pants and a beautiful top to go with them in a shade between a pale peach and pale coral. Very pretty color at any rate and it goes perfectly with a couple shirts I have that have a shade in them like that too!

The grandson gave me a card which, if my scanner were working, I would scan it in here for you to see but instead, I'm going to have to write in here about this card.

On the front, is a cartoon type animal -either a dog or a bear -kind of hard to discern that part -but it says "Grandma! Happy Mother's Day from y our Intelligent, Good-looking, Talented Grandchild!"

Then, when you open the card it says "And that's not conceit, it's Heredity!"

I read that and howled laughing, telling Alex that was exactly right too! Yep - no conceit in our family left cause Alex and I are sharing it all!

The only downside -to me -of this weekend was learning the other day that the young lady who is the head of the Drama Club at our local school here was getting a lot of flack apparently from several members of the school board, even to the point of dictating to her what topics MAY NOT be in any future plays the kids put on -if she is even retained as head of the Drama Club.

In previous years, the kids (and not just high school kids here either) at our school have worked and worked really hard to put out some fantastic productions - such as "Annie" - "Guys and Dolls" - "Fiddler on the Roof" - "West Side Story" and this year, it was "Pajama Game." The director, I know, puts in very, very long hours for 3-4 months in directing not just the kids but the choreography, all other production issues, etc., for a salary that is extremely meager, considering the number of hours she puts into these plays. And now, these people on the school board -of which not one single member had seen the most recent production or any other ones for that matter -took it upon themselves to criticize her judgment in the selection of these various plays the kids did! She had to explain to them about these plays, what the play was about, etc., and in the process apparently made a comment to the board that this is all important because it is "literature." To which one school board member retorted that to him, this was most certainly NOT literature! Gee willikers! Makes me wonder what on earth rock these supposedly intelligent people who are in charge of leading our school district forward just crawled out from under, ya know?

By the end of the grilling of the director, she was told the kids could continue to do a play but it could not contain ANY of the following things: no kissing; no foul language; no criminal activity, no references even to rape or murder or homosexuality and no mention of smoking of any type or any kind of drug usage!

When my son called home yesterday to wish me Happy Mother's Day, I told him what I knew of what was going on and he was livid. Keep in mind, my son was never what one would call a "student" -he was more of just a person who showed up and the school and if anything sunk in via osmosis, that was fine by him. But, the one class he did generally enjoy and did well with was English and as such, he really went on the offensive about the school board's attitude here. "Geez, Mom! If they are going to ban any of those things then what would they do if they had something by Shakespeare -or Edgar Allan Poe or who knows how many other greats from the literary field?"

It made me really, really proud to hear him speak up and out like that and the understanding he held of why this was censorship of the worst degree and should be fought against these actions too, long and hard! I don't have to tell anyone here, I'm quite sure, where I stand too on this issue, do I?

Apparently the school board feels by keeping these works out of the hands of the students they will be protecting them, but from what? In my opinion, they are not protecting them at all but allowing them to come full force in the face of reality and not fully understand it either then! What a ridiculous stance! How ludicrous is this attitude any way?

I'd love to hear your thoughts -ideas and suggestions too -on this issue so feel free to comment away!

Hope everyone had as great a Mother's Day as mine was as well as a great weekend too!

Whittle The Days Away

Yes, I know -late again. Better late than never ya know and how many more times am I gonna be telling you that too is what my readers no doubt are thinking. But gee, yesterday was Mother's Day and I was on vacation -sort of, anyway. But now, without further adieu, here's the Bushisms for today and the week ahead.

Monday, May 12, 2008 - 253 days left

"We're working with Chancellor Schroeder on what's called ten-plus-ten-over-tens $10 billion from the U.S., $10 billion from other members of the G7 over a ten-year period, to help Russia securitize the dismantling--the dismantled nuclear warheads."
--Berlin, Germany, May 2002

Tuesday, May 13, 2008 - 252 days left

"Like you, I have been disgraced about what I've seen on TV that took place in [Abu Ghraib] prison."
--Parkersburg, West Virginia, May 12, 2004

Wednesday, May 14, 2008 -- 251 days left

"For every fatal shooting, there were roughly three non-fatal shootings. And, folks, this is unacceptable in America...And we're going to do something about it."
--Philadelphia, Pennsylvania, May 14, 2001

Thursday, May 15, 2008 -- 250 days left

"We hold dear what our Declaration of Independence says, that all have got uninalienable rights, endowed by a Creator."
-- Moscow, Russia, May 2002

Friday, May 16, 2008 -- 249 days left

"After all, a week ago, there were --Yasser Arefat was boarded up in his building in Ramallah, a building full of, evidently, German peace protestors and all kinds of people. They're now out. He's now free to show leadership, to lead this world."
-Washington, D.C., May 2002

Saturday and Sunday, May 17/18, 2008 - 248 days left and 247 days left

"The public education system in America is one of the most important foundations of our democracy. After all, it is where children from all over America learn to be responsible citizens, and learn to have the skills necessary to take advantage of our fantastic opportunistic society."
--Santa Clara, California, May 2002

I'll leave the comments WIDE open to whatever you care to add to these lovely statements!

Friday, May 09, 2008

Dancing The Night Away!

Yep, that's what I should be doing tonight - dancing and dancing and then dancing some more too on top of that. Only problem here is I have two left feet. Besides, if I tried to dance even if I could do a half-way decent job at that, it would be killer time on my back -then my legs too. See what happens when you get old, gray and senile to boot?

But really, I am celebrating tonight. Yes indeedy, I sure as heck am!

Mandy and I made it down and back to Pittsburgh today for my wonderful appointment with my most favorite surgeon -best looking one too, I MUST add -and I am really pleased with the way the day went. Yep! I most certainly am!

Even though we arrived at Dr. Hughes office at UPMC (Presby) a little late -oh, about 8-10 minutes late -the lateness was caused not near as much by my missing the exit we should have taken to cross one of the oodles and oodles of bridges across the lovely Allegheny River as it was by having to drive around and around -and around some more -in what seemed to be never-ending circle in the parking garage in our quest to find a place to park Mandy's buggy!

She asked me about mid-way down to Pittsburgh if I had printed out any directions from Mapquest or whatever map site I could have found and used on the computer but I'd never even given it a second thought this morning that maybe, just maybe, printing out at least the route numbers, just in case the senility factors happened to kick into gear on me. Na! Tarzan no need road map, ya know!

However, karma wanted to put my excellent sense of direction skills to good use today. Yep, sure did give that aspect a workout on me, it did.

We missed the exit for the first bridge (don't have a clue as to the street name or the bridge name but I do remember from previous trips the bridge we should have taken is painted either blue or green and the one we ended up going across was yellow. However, I told Mandy never fear, mother is here and I can get us there! I got us through from wherever it was that we were lost, down to Forbes Avenue, then to Atwood Street, hung a left there and up to Fifth Avenue and presto magic, we were a mere block away at that point from Lothrup Street -which just happens to be the street where Dr. Hughes office at Presbyterian Hospital (UPMC) is located in the Digestive Disorders region of that place! I was happy! Mandy was happy too! We weren't lost -just slighly misplaced for a little while, ya see!

Although it had been close to 18 months since I last saw Dr. Hughes, gotta tell ya'll this - he doesn't look any the worse for wear, not a day older! Just as nice looking, handsome, low-key, great personality and the ability to tell a fat old lady just the very words she wanted to hear today too!

NO SURGERY RECOMMENDED! YAY~! YAY~! Totally made my day!

He said since at this time, the hernia is not bothering me at all and since the colostomy is functioning fine and dandy too, it was his opinion that we should leave well enough alone then! He really feels to do a reversal of the colostomy, with the damage that has been done over the past five years to my pelvic floor, he wouldn't recommend that at all. And, his advice -besides to come back and visit with him in another six months -was to be cautious as to my actions and if I start having a lot of discomfort and nausea, to NOT treat it as just the flu but to call him immediately and then, head out the door for Pittsburgh! Cause then, surgery would be necessary but until and if that ever happens, I am one very, very happy camper with his theory tonight!!! YES. I. AM! Can you tell?

We left his office about 1:25 this afternoon and headed down to Forbes Avenue and I was sure I knew how to "exit" that area of Pittsburgh, get us back to finding Route 28 and heading back east to home. Yeah, sure I did!

Once again, my sense of direction or memory of what turns to make -not sure which -intervened here and this time we did get lost! But, in the process of finding our way out of the city, we did manage to drive along Beechwood Drive and saw loads and loads of beautiful, mostly brick, homes and plenty of really pretty landscapes and flowers, blooming trees too -even passed by Frick Park! Which was definitely a tip-off to me that we had gone awry in our travels then!

We drove around, trying to find our way and I told Mandy to just look for any routes that pointed they were heading north and when we came across one, to take it in the northerly direction cause I knew, sooner or later, it would lead us to a Route number I knew and most likely, one going east too!

And yes, in fact, that is exactly what happened too. Although it took us about 30 some miles of wandering around until we stumbled on Route 837 North, then Route 51 north and finally, thank the Good Lord above, we saw a sign that said ROUTE 79 North! Man, we jumped on that one!

Up at Grove City exit, we stopped at the Country Fair store there to say hello to my ex-sister-in-law - the kids good old Aunt Lou Ann - who was just going into work when we arrived there. Probably scared the living daylights out of her as Mandy kind of barreled across the parking lot, tooting the horn and she was probably wondering then too, who the hell were these crazy rednecks that seemed to be driving right for her -until she finally recognized Mandy and started laughing!

After visiting with her for about 10-15 minutes, we had to -yes, I mean we HAD TO go over to the Grove City Outlet Mall. That Carter's (kid's clothing) store there was just beckoning to us, calling our names to come in and visit. We bought the kids some clothes, much needed (Ha, that's a joke as Mandy has enough clothing socked away for these to yardbirds that as long as they stay this size for the next 2-3 years at least, she could probably wear a different outfit on them almost every day. Ok, maybe not quite THAT many outfits but sometimes, looking at the piles of clothes in the laundry baskets, it does kind of seem that way. But we dropped a few coins at the Carter's Store as well as down at the Oshkosh place too and then, headed for home.

But, along the way home then, since neither of us had anything to eat all day and the one cup of coffee I was able to get before leaving this morning had long since worn off, we stopped in Brookville then and had a very nice, leisurely supper at the Buffet restaurant there -Pyler's -before then rushing to get to the Walmart in Clearfield before the pharmacy closed there so I could pick up my prescription and Mandy could get the prescription the doctor had called in today too for Bill -his meds for his migraines because, shock of shocks, can you imagine this but spending the day with Kurtis -quality Dad to son time ya know for about 6 hours, then the rest of the afternoon and evening with this sweet, innocent, so very well-behaved and definitely quiet four-year-old, he who has been saying it is a piece of cake to stay with these kids all day and night had suddenly after only four hours with his son, developed a severe migraine! Can you believe that? I mean, really? Hmmm. Me thinks the next time he gets a wild hair up his butt about what a piece of cake it would be to watch these two and try to get anything else done, Mandy and I should just conjure up a doctor's visit to Pittsburgh and leave him here alone again -all to his very own devices!

Yes, I know - we are evil, oh my yes, indeed that we are, for sure!

And you know what, we laughed and laughed about that very thing too much of the way home!

But the topper for the day was when Mandy called her Dad out in Nevada after we left the Walmart in Clearfield to fill him in on my doctor's visit and such and she gleefully told her Dad about how much fun she and old Mom here had, with our "Outing" (which is a term old Dad likes to use for events like this -especially ones in which you get lost traveling but end up making a good time of it all after all.) And can you believe this but her Dad said that she deserved a day to herself, away from the kids, getting out of the house and such cause these two hooligans can be such a handfull ya see.

Funny thing though -he must have always thought our kids were total angels cause he never thought I needed a day away, a break from them!

See what aging and maybe a dose of senility does for a person!

Certainly does change one's perspective, doesn't it?

After he said that, I then told Mandy her dad was still a "peckerhead" - one of my favorite descriptive words.

Yeah, it fits!

But I'm still basking in my good news for today regardless.

Hope you all had a day even half as pleasing as mine was today!

An early Mother's Day present, for sure!

Thursday, May 08, 2008

Changes -Over Two Decades

Mandy, Kurtis and I went to Altoona today for Kurt's appointment with the allergy/immunology doctor there. We were under the impression the little guy was going to have to have all those lovely allergy tests -with the needles all over his poor little back and such- but when Kurtis not only flinched but flailed and kicked with a lot of force when the doctor put the stethoscope to his chest, that doctor told Mandy he didn't think little guy would be too receptive to the tests today. Very observant doctor this was! He did study Kurt's records, the information sheets Mandy had filled out about him, etc., and gave her a prescription for cingular (or is that spelled "singular") -the allergy meds, any way. She has to bring him back in three months, and depending on how these meds work, he may want to do more blood work, tests maybe following but not for a while anyway.

After we got home, we decided to go out to eat tonight and the choice made was to head down the interstate to the next exit east of us to the truckstop where I used to work, many, many moons ago. As a matter of fact, it was 19 years ago around this time in May when the owner of that lovely establishment fired me! Yeah, I've been canned a time or two over my work life, ya know!

But going back there tonight, seeing how much the place has changed over time, brought back lots and lots of memories of working there.

This truckstop was one of the best place along Interstate 80 in Pennsylvania. It had a good business there consisting of a lot of support from locals, tourists and plenty of truckers who used to stop there with regularity. There is a smaller truckstop/restaurant across the street from the one where I worked which never did near the business as this place did. Most of the truckers who frequented the place across the road tended to be steel haulers and meat haulers or independent drivers. The bigger place was often referred to on the CB as "Freight hauler Heaven" because the majority of the truckers who frequented the bigger place, the one where I worked, were drivers for Yellow, Roadway, Preston, CF during my last years there but had also been a haven for the P.I.E., Interstate and other companies that went down the tubes before 1988. It was known primarily as being a "Union" type or company driver's truck stop.

When I first started working there back in 1981, I worked the midnight shift. The other waitresses I worked with couldn't get over how I came to know so many of the drivers by their name or cb handle and what company they drove for too but I made it a point to learn as much of that as I could because those guys were our bread and butter, you see. I would watch when I saw a truck pull in the lot, what company the truck belonged to. Then, when the driver came in (provided I had paid attention to which truck he got out of) I would then watch to see what, if any, other drivers he would sit with. Occasionally, drivers from different companies would sit together but as a general rule, they would tend to sit with other drivers from the same company and usually drivers from the same terminal too.

The days I spent working at "The Shoe" as this truckstop was frequently called, were hectic, hard -lots and lots of running to keep the customers happy -not always all that profitable, sometimes maddening, but almost always, they were fun days. Go figure that out now!

The last time I had a job that I could work really hard at the tasks and still laugh, enjoy pulling practical jokes, listening to loads and loads of jokes too, and just have a great time getting to know some really terrific, but often also really crazy people, was at the job I'd had back in the late 60's, early 70's, down in D.C. This place -the truckstop -really kept the help on their toes, not just from the hard work but also, trying to keep one step, one practical joke, ahead of the drivers.

Back when I worked there, we ran with three waitress on the graveyard shift and generally, at least six watiresses on day and second shift except for major holidays and deer season when we would have three waitresses on the truckers/counter side and anywhere from four to six waitresses in the dining room on the ultra busy days.

When we walked in tonight, the first thing I noticed was a sign on the front door stating new hours for the restaurant: closing at 11 p.m., reopening at 7 a.m., daily. When I worked there, there were the three shifts and the only days the place was closed then was Christmas Eve and Christmas Day and New Year's Eve and New Year's Day!

We sat at a table in the back of the dining room along the windows overlooking the trucker's parking lot. I glanced across the dining room and saw a lady waiting on a youngish couple across the room and was wondering who she might be. Then, as she stood up straight and started to walk away, I was almost in a state of shock and told Mandy, "Oh my gosh! That's Barb!" Back when I worked there, Barb always worked day shift -never filled in on any other shifts -ever! When she started towards our table with the menus in hand, she did a double take too upon seeing us, recognizing both me and Mandy too. When I worked there, I used to joke with the drivers that I would probably go down in history as being the oldest truckstop waitress but I think maybe Barb might end up holding that record. I asked her how long she'd been working there now and she said "Thirty One Years!" Considering she is probably at least nine, maybe even ten or eleven years older than me, you do the math and figure out how old she is. However, if you were ever to stop there and if she were to wait on you, there is no way you would ever, ever think she is in her early-to-mid-seventies! So, just in case some old truckers who used to run I-80 through Pennsylvania back in the 70's and 80's happen to find this blog and this post, yes, guys - Barb from dayshift, is still alive, still working at "The Shoe."

When I worked there the last three years of my time at the place, I worked the 3 p.m. to 11 p.m. (second) shift and the hours from 5 p.m. to 7 p.m. on most any day of the week would almost always find us very busy. Tonight, not busy at all! Quite a shock to my equilibrium to see how little busy the place had. I think the entire time we were there, they had a total of 19 customers in the dining room occupying a total of 7 tables! Peanuts compared to the numbers that used to float in and out of there back in the 80's.

One of the specials today just happened to be liver and onions (with mashed potatoes and gravy), a vegetable, salad and rolls and butter - and that meal just happens to be one of my favorites from that place (as well as other small restaurants around here that offer it on the menu). It's a meal that I could make for myself at home but only the 16-year-old and I will eat it so it gets relegated to a meal I will often order when eating out. So, I had the liver and onions, mashed potatoes and gravy, candied carrots and pepper slaw for my supper tonight. Pepper slaw is one of my personal favorite salad type dishes too and The Shoe makes their own pepper slaw, which was, as always, delicious!

When we left, Maya wanted Mandy to drive home -although we had to take an extended route to get home as we had to come up towards the house and then go 25 miles further over to Clearfield, to the hospital, so I could pick up a cd or dvd from the radiology department with my films and medical records for the past 18-20 months from that hospital on it to take with us to Pittsburgh tomorrow so the surgeon there can compare my most recent cat scan to the ones done back in October of 2006.

While riding over to the hospital and then home, having been back for a meal at my old stomping ground, got me to thinking, remembering some of the things that went on at that place, some of the many drivers I knew over the years too and so much of the fun times that were had while working there.

My kids came to know a goodly number of the drivers over my seven years there because from time to time, some of them would stop at the truckstop about four miles from where I live and call me, asking me to come up and have coffee with them mainly so they didn't have to spend their meal break eating alone. And frequently, my kids went with me too.

Some of my favorite drivers of all time were based in the Poconos and drove for Consolidated Freightways -or CF. Those guys almost to a man were often the craziest, zaniest people you'd ever hope to meet. I used to tell other drivers if they said they were going to the Poconos that if they knew what was good for them, to not drink the water over there because apparently there was something in the water supply in that vicinity that affected people - made them slightly crazy!

Some of the drivers from that terminal whose names and cb handles -or other nicknames they had -that come to my mind right now were Walter, aka Jumper; Stanley, aka Happy Man; Bobbie O or Zero or Moving Violation. Then there was the Green Rooster who later married one of the cashiers from the Shoe and Problem Child, aka Jolly Jack. Definitely can't forget my old friend "Oink, Oink" -the Pig Farmer (Gerry) and his former best friend Tommy, known as "Ragpicker or simply just "Picker." Also Charming Chuck the Cheater! Chuckie looked a lot like one of the musicians in the group "Alabama" and was very much the ladies man too. Would you believe it but at one time, because someone at work had made a comment about how many drivers I could identify, I came home and made up a list of drivers from all the different companies who stopped frequently at the Shoe. I listed them by company and then by terminal too and when I was finished, I had a list of over 600 drivers who I knew either by name or cb handle -and in many instances, by both!

Jumper (Walter) from CF's was really a character and used to take great pleasure in trying to see how quickly he could get our attention while we were busy trying to wait on other people, especially families, and then he would flip us off - shoot us the bird, ya know! The object then was for whoever he did that to that the waitress would then have to find a way to return the gesture to him without the people being waited on being any the wiser to our antics.

I remember in particular one day when the girls I worked with and I were getting ready to go back and punch in and one waitress came to the clock area announcing that Walter was out in the trucker's room and had already flipped her the bird. So, we all clocked in and then lined up, single file and walked through the truckers' room, each one of us calling a greeting to him and politely giving him the finger in the process too. It just so happened that day was the first day for a really nice, very attractive waitress and even she followed our lead so that after we went through, Jumper announced "Geez, they even have the new girl against me now too!"

Those were some silly days, some hectic days, some tiring days, some sad ones too as we learned of accidents that claimed lives of some of the drivers we knew, or news of this driver or that one in a serious accident and even the loss of at least four drivers I knew from suicide too.

I have never been one to hold grudges except in one area and that is to get even with anyone who pulls practical jokes on me. Then, under those conditions, I will go to all lengths to get even! (So did the drivers, I must add, too though so this was a necessity of survival in the world of truckers and truckstop humor.) I once told one of the CF drivers, after he had pumped me and pumped me asking me if I kept a diary, that no, I didn't keep a diary but I did have a notebook in which I recorded many of the things the drivers would come in and tell me that went on at the other end of their runs -where they would sleep and then get a return trip home. You have to realize a lot of these guys were anything but angelic on the road and for some odd reason or other, they often would come in and tell me what they did at the "away" terminal or what other drivers did. I had this particular driver believing I was in the process of writing a "tell-all" type book about truck drivers and their on-the-road antics -something that put the fear into a whole lot of drivers from one particular terminal for close to a year!

Most of the time nowadays, I'm really relieved not to be working there - or anywhere, for that matter but there are many times when I sit back and think, remembering this or that driver and the stunts we used to pull on each other, the fun, the camaraderie we all enjoyed at "The Shoe" and times like those, then I really do miss the place -and especially those drivers -very, very much!

Here's to every last one of those drivers who ever tormented me -or I did the same to him -while I worked at "The Shoe."

Ya'll know who you are. Ya'll know I loved ya then, still do and yes, I miss each and everyone of those drivers very much too!

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

Doctor, Doctor!

Sometimes over the past five years there have been times when I thought I never wanted to see any more doctors -of any type -ever again. Not many of those thoughts occurred between March 17, 2003 and the spring of 2004 though as then, I just wanted to see whoever I could who was doing whatever possible to help my system heal. Nowadays, I am much more inclined to thing along the lines of not wanting to see any more doctors though.

However, this coming Friday, Mandy and I will be going to Pittsburgh for me to see the surgeon who did the colostomy on me 18 months ago. I've tried to weasel my way around this visit but unfortunately, the local surgeon here has handed me off -back to the doctor in Pittsburgh so I don't really have any choice in that matter. Suck it up and go is about all that I can do right now.

Don't get me wrong here. I like this surgeon very, very much -he's very good, great bedside manners, straight-forward, precise and what's more, he's excellent "eye candy" too. Yeah, even at my advanced age, he looks darned good! REALLY DARNED GOOD! I just don't want to deal with a 3 1/2 hour trip each way -to Pittsburgh and back -and truth be told, I really am not looking forward at all to the prospect of more surgery either, but then, who does look forward to that part of doctor stuff anyway?

Tomorrow though, I have to go with Mandy -over to Altoona -so the allergy-immunology specialist there can check Kurtis over and the poor little guy will then be subjected to those nasty allergy tests. I've never had to have the full series of allergy tests -thankfully. But he is going to have that according to what Mandy has been told and I'm fairly certain they will find various things he is allergic to in the process as well.

But, the good side to that is by getting a good solid diagnosis, ruling various foods and other factors out, maybe he will also respond easier and better then to the therapists, to us, sleep better at night (now there's a really pleasant thought for me!) and who knows what else getting this diagnosed and hopefully treated will help for him.

We're trying to figure out how to do this trip on Friday now though. Mandy doesn't want to take Kurtis with us as he will most likely still be upset, uncomfortable I would imagine from the tests tomorrow. His aunt here is willing to watch him -along with her four-month-old baby and eight-year-old son except that she is anticipating she will have to go to Altoona and pick up her Dad and bring him home and there's no way she can handle a baby, a toddler and a 73-year-old in not the best physical condition all at the same time.

However, she has said if her brother, my son-in-law, will go over and pick up their Dad at the hospital and bring him home, she will gladly watch Kurtis as well as get Maya off the van too at 3 p.m. Friday afternoon. That's the big question here right now -whether my son-in-law will go pick up his dad so his sister can watch his children! Seems like a no-brainer to me but he can sometimes be pretty good at weaseling out of things too -like taking that kind of responsibility, ya know.

We've been having issues for about the past two weeks now with Maya in that she tells us everynight that she isn't going to go to school the next day. Why, we have no idea! But apparently there is something going on somewhere that is upsetting her. The thing is anytime we try to ask her a question, those questions are generally asking her "Maya, why don't you want to go to school?" And her response then is always "Why?" We can't figure out a way to pose a question to her without using either the word "Why" or "What" to try to find out what is upsetting her. If anyone has any suggestions of other words we can use that would take the place of "Why" or "What" please, please, please, let me know!!!

So, with the day tomorrow pretty well used up with Kurt's appointment, Friday being very full with the trip to Pittsburgh; Saturday is a pot-luck dinner at church for members of the parish to meet the new pastoral candidate; Sunday is the candidate's service after which the congregation will vote whether to accept her or not, as well as being Mother's Day and the only Sunday in the whole year that the restaurant where Mandy works is open, which means getting to church, getting dinner ready if the other daughter, her fiance, and older grandson are coming up for the afternoon all up to yours truly to see that it all gets taken care of is gonna once again probably put me way, way behind again in my blog reading and posting too.

Just say a prayer that all goes as easy as possible for the little guy tomorrow, that our trip Friday is safe and pleasant, that I can get a nice big casserole and hopefully some fresh bread baked for the pot-luck dinner Saturday and that I survive the two little ones while trying to cook a family dinner on Sunday!

That's not too much to ask is it?

Of Anniversaries and Such

Yesterday, at different stages of my life was a day of great importance.

May 6th -ah yes, that's the date that this year should have marked my 36th Wedding Anniversary. Well, it was 36 years ago on that date that I got married but unfortunately, we were very lucky to have survived living eight LOOONNNGG years together. Definitely was not marital bliss, that's for sure.

There have been times over the past 28 years since we divorced that I have questioned my sanity because I took that big leap of faith on May 6, 1972 to begin with. Whatever was I thinking? Whatever had I been drinking could easily enough have been asked back then too.

I realized several years back but a goodly number of years after our wedding and divorce all took place that we probably were ill-fated from the start. Too many differences in expectations and too little knowledge of those factors as well. Add to that, the impatience that one could perhaps say came with my generation of women who many felt were incomplete if not married. (Heck, there's a lot of that still going on today as well though.) I do feel, in my case, that may have played a very important part on my decisions, my logic which was, in retrospect, pretty unlogical back then too.

But then, as I look around me now, I realize had I not taken those ill-fated steps of marriage, I wouldn't have the family I have today. I have three of the most fantastic children that I can call my own and had I not married their Dad, who knows what I might have ended up with, ya know.

I'm blessed now too with three gorgeous grandkids, three great step-grandkids too!

And, add to that, since my ex quit drinking almost 15 years ago now, the kids all have pretty darned good relationships with him and even he and I can converse, joke, tease each other about lots of things too these days.

That's not to say that I don't have times when I am remorseful that our marriage didn't pan out. I see my good friend down the street from me who has now been married for almost 43 years, another childhood friend and her husband just celebrated their 46th wedding anniversary while other neighbors of mine have been married for 52 years now as has a cousin of mine too. My grandparents were married for 56 years before my Grandpa died but my parents were not near as lucky as even I was as they were only married for 14 months before my Dad died. I do marvel at people who can adjust to living together as man and wife for so many years and still be able to appreciate each other.

I had thought too of posting a picture of my ex and me on our wedding day however, my disc drive isn't working now and those old pictures I have saved all on those old type discs so they aren't currently accessible for me with my computer. Probably a blessing in disguise too for you, my readers eyes as well, come to think of it.

The other reason this date was one of importance in my life is because one of my Dad's three sisters was born on this date 100 years ago as a matter of fact. She was seven years younger than my Dad but was the oldest of his sisters - my Aunt Lizzie. And she passed away two years ago on this date as well. Enter and exit on the same date -just 98 years in between.

She was quite a character in her own right too. A fighter from the time she was a toddler as she had polio sometime back then -not sure of her age at the time but I think she was 3 maybe 4 years old at the time. The doctor who treated her though advised my grandparents to purchase a tricycle for her to try to help her leg that had been affected and somehow, on a poor coal miner's wages, with by then, seven other children to feed, they managed to acquire said trike for my aunt and as a result, although her one leg was still shorter than the other, she managed to hide this factor quite well over the years.

She was a reader, a lover of crossword puzzles (as I am too) and a teacher. She taught first grade for many, many years and people who can teach kids at that age have my deepest admiration! She was also very feisty at times in her later life. My Aunt Mike, the baby of the family, commented to me on numerous occasions about how Aunt Lizzie would sometimes say things that seemed a bit on the sharp side and I remember telling Aunt Mike then that someday, when she too was over 80 years old, she would be able to do the same thing -tell people exactly what she wanted to say, you know. And darned if Aunt Mike didn't take me at my word too once she passed that 80 year mark!

My aunts -these two sisters especially -were devoted to each other and for more years than I can think of they always had supper together too. They lived about 4-5 miles apart and always would have supper together at Aunt Mike's house. Even if the weather was atrocious - snowing, sleet, even freezing rain - if Aunt Lizzie couldn't drive down to Aunt Mike's house - the family homestead - herself, Aunt Mike would drive in and pick her up and then, take her back home after supper! It was a crazy thing for her to do because of the risk factor involved but they were both that determined to spend quality time over a meal with each other every day it was somehow possible to do that.

Just counting the blessings I have had in my life - both of which made May 6th a very special day for me.

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

Emerging Talent

There's a politician in the works in the family!

No, I haven't seen Maya or Kurtis doing anything that might show they have an early inclination towards serving the people through our government but who knows, perhaps many years from now, it could be possible.

I'm referring here to the grandson of one of my cousins. He's been interested in politics since he was about eight years old and now, at the ripe old age of 15, he's starting to show this side to more than just family and close friends.

Last week, he had a letter to the editor published in our local newspaper. He stated in this letter than although he's only 15, not old enough yet to register and vote, he is declaring himself as being a Democrat and a Clinton supporter no less. But the letter wasn't intended to try to drum up support for her or anything like that. Rather, it was addressed to the other students in our local high school as well as students all over, that he would like to see them take an interest in the political scene. At least learn about what's happening, who's running for election for what seats, what their goals are and of course, for the young people to have a better idea of what is needed in the country today and in the future.

As I read his letter, all I could think of at the time was how proud my one uncle especially would have been had he been around to see this. He might not have been to crazy about the party or his candidate choice (my Dad's family has always been pretty straight Republicans) but my Uncle Arch had been involved in county politics back in the 40's, 50's and 60's, as County Commissioner for several terms, Prothonotary for a few terms too and had even ventured out to try running for State Representative from our district once as well. (He was defeated in that election.) I said for many years the only Republican I would ever vote for without a question about his integrity and goals was this particular uncle of mine. (I have on a few occasions over the years, I will confess, voted for a stray Republican at times although I generally lean towards the Democrats.)

I hope my young cousin's letter and the message it contained may possibly have touched someone else and gave a little "lightbulb" moment of realization that learning, taking an interest in the electoral process is a very important part of life, of maintaining our freedoms, our government, our society today and in the future. Congrats to Pj for a really great letter!

Now, at home, we have noticed some more potential for an emerging artist or home interior decorator perhaps. Here's the artist - you probably already guessed it was Maya, didn't you?

And here's her latest bit of handiwork! She's always trying to find new materials to work with. However, considering how much her Mother hasn't been overly appreciative of her efforts to adorn the walls in the house, be thankful you weren't here when Mandy discovered this masterpiece on the loveseat cushion!

Yesterday -and again today -she decided she needed to perk up her own body a bit too. Sorry, but I have no photos of her talent there. But she used lovely marker and for some reason, apparently has a thing for the word "Happy" as she printed it, in big bold marker, on her legs, yesterday and again today. Today, she also colored the entire sole of her right foot with black marker and the palm of her left hand too. Looks fantastic. (NOT!) But then, it is perhaps better than drawing on the walls, the sofa cushions and stuff like that, isn't it.

Gotta pick our battles here I guess.

I'll go for the body painting at this stage of the game. Bathing a child is a whole lot easier than scrubbing walls or couch covers, ya know!

Sunday, May 04, 2008

The Odd, Strange and Curious

Terry at Terry's Playpen is responsible for my writing this post. Why is that? Simple. Because he tagged me and since I'm already behind in responding to other tags right now, I figured I'd best do this one right now, while I'm still partially awake and maybe I can recall six little-known facts about me!

The Rules:

1. Link to the person that tagged you (that's me!).

2. Post the rules on your blog.

3. Write six random things about you in your blog post.

4. Tag six people in your post.

5. Let each person know they are tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.

6. Let the tagger know your entry is up.

1. When I was a kid in elementary school, every report card I ever brought home always had a checkmark in the "Whispers" column. Do you suppose that was the start of my long-winded posts?

2. I knew how to read before I started first grade because my grandfather had been reading to me from very early on and by the time I was four years old, I could read all my "Golden Reader" books.

3. I lived apart from my Mom for almost 18 months -bouncing from living with my grandparents, to living with my grandparents with my Mom's older sister and her husband, then back to the homestead here with my grandparents and another short stay again with my aunt and uncle all while my Mom lived in Niagara Falls with her younger sister and worked up there until my grandparents refused to leave their home again and someone had to stay with them so my Mom returned back here.

4. When I was in second grade, I took a "Reader's Digest" to school. To my teacher's surprise, I read from it. She told me years and years later I was the only second grader she ever had who brought the "Reader's Digest" to school and could actually read it.

5. When I was in 4th grade, I read the novel "Not As A Stranger." I re-read it again when I was in 8th grade and another time after that when I was a senior in high school. It was amazing how much more I understood of that book with each subsequent reading. Also amazing that my Mom never tried to stop me from reading it either.

6. I took piano lessons as a child for about 3 years total. I took Violin lessons too from the time I was in 4th grade through 6th grade. Never got very good at that instrument. I took French Horn lessons too for a year and the school music teacher even put me in the marching band with that instrument after I'd been learning it for about six months, which was a very big mistake on his part. It's really difficult to learn to march in steps and patterns when you can't really walk and chew gum at the same time. I'd have been lucky if I could have played a piece on the French Horn simply in a seated position but trying to do all the other maneuvering and playing the correct notes too -I soon gave up that venture -probably to the pleasure of the music teacher and band director too I would guess.

Now -I'm supposed to select six other bloggers and tag them. Gosh, I hate doing that but this time, I will follow through and here are my six tagged bloggers:

Beth
OH Mommy
Dottie
Sandi
Rick
Terri

Have fun and now, have a good day or good night -whichever one applies -as I am going to bed and at a somewhat decent hour no less! (It's not even 12:30 a.m. here as I sign off for tonight.)

"Have I Died?"

I had hoped to be back on track earlier than this -but didn't get through reading post after post (via my reader) until late tonight. Today was a difficult day to try to finish my reading too because when I awoke this morning, my left eye was very bloodshot and sore too. Not the eyelid, but the eye, itself -so I don't think it is pink-eye or something like that but anyway, it didn't help my appearance one iota added to the fact that my vision wasn't quite up to par either so I ended up skipping church. So did Mandy and of course, Maya. I don't know why Mandy didn't go as she never mentioned her reason to me but Maya questioned her about it.

"We go church, Mommy?" - Response -"No, Maya, not today."
"We should go church, Mommy. I want go church!" -Response -"No, baby, not today.
I thought it was interesting that Maya is taking more and more interest in going to church with us -even to the point of insisting that we open the hymnal to each page as we proceed through the liturgy and to the readings and the hymns as well. I know she can't read, in the regular sense, but she wants to try to learn to follow along to the best of her four-year-old ability which I find quite commendable. (My Grandmother would be extremely proud of this little girl!)

I have a little story for you tonight though - one that I figured I'd best share now or I might forget to post about this and I just thought it was way too good to let it pass.

My daughter Mandy's father-in-law is in the hospital -has been there for about 2-3 weeks now I believe. He had surgery a few months back in which they did something or other with the veins in his legs pertaining to cleaning them out, improving his circulation, etc. And, when he was admitted back into the hospital this time, it was because of a blood clot in his leg, added to the heart problems he has been dealing with now too for the past 3-4 years or so.

This week, Mandy had contacted "Pastor John" the minister at a nearby church who has the position of vice-pastor at our church until we get a new full-time minister. Along with handling or overseeing the Church Council and other affairs of our parish, in addition to his own church's needs, he also visits sick, elderly, shut-ins from our parish or relatives of members as well. Although Mandy's father-in-law has no church affiliation whatsoever, probably hasn't had one for a very, very long time -if ever -she had asked Pastor John if he would add "Pap" to his list as she thought maybe, since it is really difficult for Bill or his sister to get over to visit him very often (he's in a hospital in Altoona which is a 55 mile drive, one-way) that it might make him feel good just to have someone stop in and check in on him.

Last night, Pap called Mandy and thanked her for sending Jesus to see him.

Mandy realized he meant Pastor John but she asked him about the visit and here's what happened.

Pap said he was napping and was awakened by someone standing by his bed, speaking softly to him - saying "Walter, Walter?"

He said when he opened his eyes, there stood this very tall, bearded man with a tee shirt on that said across the chest "Jesus."

And Pap's first words to him were "Have I died and gone to heaven?"

Needless to say, Mandy and I both howled laughing as we could just envision the look in Pap's eyes, on his face, as he focused in on the sight in front of him!

Coming Up!

Phew! I never, ever, want to get that far behind EVER again with my blog readings! After the events of this past week, it took me from Thursday until now to finally make my way through reading all the blogs I have listed on my reader! Four days! That's the first time since I started using the reader that I have not kept up with the blogs on at least an every 36 hours type basis and I hope it's a good lesson learned here to not get that far behind again.

So now, starting off the coming week -here's the Bushisms for it!

Monday, May 5, 2008 - 260 days left

"The point now is how do we work together to achieve important goals. And one such goal is a democracy in Germany."
--Washington, D.C., May 5, 2006

May 6, 2008 - 259 days left

"You never know what your history is going to be like until long after you're gone."
--Washingtonm,D C., May 2006

Wednesday, May 7, 2008 -- 258 days left

"And one of the things we've got to make sure that we do is anything."
--Washington, D.C., May 7, 2002

Thursday, May 8, 2008 --257 days left

"I would say the best moment of all was when I caught a seven and a half pound largemouth bass in my lake."
--In German newspaper "Bild am Sonntag about the best moment of his presidency, May 2006.

Friday, May 9, 1008 -- 256 days left

Former Attorney General John Ashcroft's birthday, 1942
"24/7 - 24 hours a week, 7 months a year."
-- John Ashcroft

Saturday and Sunday, May 10/11, 2008 - 255 days left and 254 days left

"There's no question that the minute I got elected, the storm clouds on the horizon were getting nearly directly overhead."
--Washington,m D.C., May 11, 2001

And that's all -for now, folks!

Thursday, May 01, 2008

Slowly Returning

I'm slowly trying to sort through things of the past week -along with loads of things that go back over the years too -and as I'm doing that, I'm going to try to get back into the blog stuff once more.

I haven't read but only a few blogs since Sunday really so I'm way behind on that task. Haven't blogged either since Sunday or Monday and after the past five days, I'm kind of taking a bit of a breather, of sorts, today and easing back into all this as I still have a lot of stuff here to take care of now.

I did posterboards with photos arranged on them in a collage type for the viewing yesterday for my aunt. It took two large tri-fold posterboards as well as two good sized single posterboards to even begin to display from the wealth of photos I had to go through. Talk about a difficult time trying to find pictures that would, hopefully, show almost everyone of her nieces and nephews as well as many of the great and great-great nieces and nephews she had was something else! I didn't get the last display finished until about 4 a.m. Wednesday morning and boy, was my back ever happy when I did get that last one done!

After standing in the funeral home for over two hours yesterday, then thankfully we were seated, of course, for the service, but then the interment and dinner following that, by the time I got back home about 3:15 yesterday, I was totally whipped! My back and legs felt like the best cure would be to cut things off at about my waist, ya know! But a nice restful nap yesterday afternoon for me, Kurt, Mandy and Maya too and we were all feeling much better then by evening.

Last night though, I finally got around to trying the organ that my son and future son-in-law managed to get brought down to my house from my Aunt's home on Monday. Boy, did I get a scare though because I couldn't figure out how to get the darned thing to turn on and get the keys to work. I was worrying then that something had happened to it and I would have to call someone in to check it out and repair it.

However, I went online last night looking for information about Hammond organs, operating instructions and the like and finally, this morning I found a page with lots of information along those lines and in the process, I found out then how to turn one of the puppies on too! The nice thing is that it has two switches - a start and a run switch and both have to be activated in a certain time manner, etc., so that means I won't have to worry about certain little fingers going and messing with the organ at any time now! I have a new, big, beautiful "toy" that has very special meaning and purpose just for me, all to myself (selfish brat only child that I still am ya know)!

Now, in addition to trying to figure out how I am ever going to get all these many photos I have here now from my Aunt's home scanned in and save to dvds or cds and then finding a place to safely store the photos too till I can check with my cousin as to where he wants them or what he would like for me to do with them, I also have to start trying to figure out what I should cook to take to a special church dinner this coming Saturday evening. It is a pot luck dinner to give the congregation an opportunity to meet with the pastoral candidate we now have before she preaches her first sermon this Sunday morning after which the congregation will then vote whether to accept her or not. Mandy has already met her at the Church Council meeting about three weeks ago now and she was very highly impressed with the young lady. So, I'm just hoping all goes well Saturday and then Sunday and that we will soon have a new full-time pastor for our church again. The last time we had a vacancy here it too the church almost four years before we were able to get a replacement and many of us were worried that we might have the same problem again. It's very difficult to get a pastor willing to relocate to a rural and somewhat economically stressed area so it is quite a blessing that we received a candidate interested in our parish this quickly.

As to the dinner Saturday evening, I am a little worried about how I'm going to manage to get out to church because Mandy has to work that evening and I KNOW I can't fix a covered dish, get it and the kids and myself ALL out there and manage the kids alone there for a meal! Just ain't in the cards, ya know! So that's going to take a bit of manipulation on my part, for sure!

And now, I'd best get my fanny moving -while it's still able to move and my back and legs haven't started to act up on me again -not yet, anyway! Lots to do to get the house looking half decent again what with all the new items in the living room, just for openers and that says nothing at all about working with all these photos too! Anyone want to come help me scan pictures?

But I'll be back and forth with the blog again. I feel much better now about many things that had been really wearing on me for quite some time. Especially all the issues with my aunt.

Much as my cousins and I -my kids and grandchildren too -were saddened by her passing, we all realize she is in a much better place now with no pain, no suffering, and for that we can be and are very grateful. In so many ways, she had left us, piece by piece, over the past five years or so as her mind started to fade from over that time.

I'm just so grateful to have had her as such a large part of my life for as many wonderful years as she was with all of us. My grandson, Alex, who is ten years old, is really having a difficult time with this as it is probably his first experience with losing someone he for whom he cared very deeply and who had returned his love so often and with so much mutual adoration they had for each other. It was very difficult yesterday to watch him, to see him hurting so much and so little any of us could do to help him cope right now. He does understand how sick she was, how much she had endured and that it was indeed time for her to rest but it is still much harder for children at times like this. Thankfully though, he too has many wonderful memories of her and we have many, many photographs of Aunt Mike with Alex too.

Now, time to get to work!

Monday, April 28, 2008

Looking Forward

I am doing my regular post today of this week's Bushisms but will probably be missing in action for a good deal of this week then as to blogging.

The reason being my dear Aunt passed away early Saturday morning and though we expected it, there is so much going on now with getting things ready for her viewing, the memorial service, etc., -all scheduled for Wednesday. I've been on the phone more the past two days than I have been since back in the day when I was an Avon rep and would be calling my customers to get their orders! Cousins all over the state to contact, back and forth with information for them to relay to our cousin here who is the one in charge of my aunt's affairs and such. I'm going to be picking up a big box of photos my aunt had and my daughter Mandy and I will be doing up a photo display then for the viewing at the funeral home. Plus, my cousin had planned to have a sale of what was left at the homestead of my aunt's furniture, etc., this past Saturday and I became the beneficiary of the beautiful organ my aunt had in her home. So now, my son and I are trying to figure out who we can get to give us some assistance to get the organ out of the homestead, down to my house and in here PLUS we also then have to get the electronic organ I already have here -but which is in need of service and repair -moved out and up to my son's house until I can make arrangements to find a potential new home for it. SO many things going on right now that I feel like my head is just spinning at times.

So, for now, I'll put the Bushisms up today and will be back later this week - I hope -once things calm down a bit. Although, it looks like this is going to be one really hectic week all week long as I also have a doctor's appointment on Friday down in Pittsburgh - a 3 1/2 hour drive one way -and it is going to be a bit hairy to make that appointment and get back here in time for Mandy to get to work then too Friday evening. Sometimes, you just want to holler "STOP! I want off this wild ride for a while!"

But now, here's the Bushisms for the week ahead.

Monday, April 28, 2008 - 267 days left

"Neither in French nor in English nor in Mexican."
--Refusing to answer reporters' questions while having his picture taken with the Canadian Prime Minister, April 2001.

Tuesday, April 29, 2008 - 266 days left

"We look forward to analyzing and working with legislation that will make --it would hope -- put a free press's mind at ease that you're not being denied information you shouldn't see."
--Washington, D.C., April 2005

Wednesday, April 30, 2008 -265 days left

"It would be a mistake for the United States Senate to allow any kind of human cloning to come out of that chamber."
--Washington, D.C, April 2002

Thursday, May 1, 2008 --264 days left

President Bush declares victory in Iraq aboard an aircraft carrier bearing a victory banner.
--May 1, 2003

Friday, May 2, 2008 - 263 days left

"But I also made it clear to [Vladimir Putin] that it's important to think beyond the old days of when we had the concept that if we blew each other up, the world would be safe."
--Washington, D.C., May 2001

Saturday and Sunday, May 3 and May 4, 2008 - 262 days left and 261 days left.

"We ended the rule of one of history's worst tyrants, and in so doing, we not only freed the Amereican people, we made our own people more secure."
--Crawford, Texas, May 3, 2003

Friday, April 25, 2008

The Barn

I've been in a sort of self-imposed exile I guess you could call it most of this week. There have been lots of things at times I thought I could write about here and there but when push came to shove, I couldn't bring myself to sit down and write.

I mentioned the other day the issue surrounding my aunt -her imminent death, which as of tonight does look like it is coming much closer, closing in on us -her family - now. My cousin, who has power of attorney for her (and her daughter too), called us tonight to let me know that she is in extremely poor condition. Although he said she appeared now to be resting, sleeping somewhat peacefully, her breathing is now extremely labored. So it could be a matter of hours and yet, it could drag on and on for sometime yet too. None of us, her surviving nieces and nephews, want to lose her but we have actually already lost her sometime ago as her mind, her memory, her ability to communicate with us left. We know there is no return possible of the aunt we knew as children, as adults; of the aunt who would have done anything within her power for any one of us. None of us wants to see her languishing like this and we know too she would not want this for herself either, if she had a choice. We accept the fact that losing her would be a blessing for her -as it would give her rest, peace and rejoining her siblings, parents and husband once again. She was a one-of-a-kind person, of that there is no doubt and that person is the one we will all miss terribly too.

My apologies for bogging everyone down here with the sorrows that are within my heart, my children as well as my cousins and their children and grandchildren too.

Aside from that strife here, there have been a few other things a bit more light-hearted at times.

Yesterday, at school, Maya's teacher tried a new way to hopefully work around Maya's fears of using the potty to poop. This has been a big stumbling block with the teacher and her aides as well as with us at home. None of us has a clue as to why Maya is so adamant with her refusal to even try to use the commode instead of insisting on donning a pair of pullups as soon as she feels the need to perform this bodily function. So yesterday, while working with Maya in the bathroom, her teacher kept telling her to "push, push" and at one point, when Maya happened to lean forward a little bit, she dropped some kind of chocolate-type cookie in the commode and told Maya to look and see that she had just "pooped." A little trickery, ya know.

Well, when Maya came home from school yesterday, she was insisting to us that she was not going back to school today. At first she kept telling us she was "Going to go to the Barn" today and then, it switched over to her whining and even crying that she didn't want to go back to school because she didn't want to poop there. What? There is apparently some really ingrained fear present there that none of can seem to break down.

Last night though, Mandy finally figured out what Maya was referring to about "going to the Barn" today. She meant she wanted to go to the home of a friend of ours here in town who has some baby chicks, some grown chickens and a rooster, a bunny and also three huge turkeys! So I e-mailed Patti last night to see if Mandy could bring the kids up this afternoon to visit the animals at her "Barn." If I'd been thinking straight when we went up there, I really should have taken my camera along too because I could have got some photos that would really blow your minds! These turkeys, for openers, both the Toms are humungous! Patti says they both probably weigh about 50 pounds each and the hen weighs roughly about thirty pounds. Big slappers, for darned sure, they are! Maya was not afraid of the birds although the first time the Toms made a sound near her, she did jump slightly but then, eventually she drummed up enough courage to lightly pet them.

The cats Patti has there are also really big ones and the one cat has 26 toes too! Quite the sight to see him lumbering around too, as you can imagine. I don't know what the heck Patti feeds them but they definitely are not on a starvation diet, that's for sure!

It was especially cute though to watch Maya interacting with Patti's younger son, who is about six years old. It would appear that Maya is quite sweet on him as at every opportunity, she could be seen giving him some really big hugs. Don't ever let anyone tell you that autistic children are cold and unfeeling, unsociable too because if you'd seen Maya today, you'd know for sure that's far from the truth! For that matter, even little Kurtis is perhaps if not THE MOST loving little guy, he ranks very high in that category. All it takes is for someone to pick him up and he is almost always johnny-on-the-spot to putting his arms around your neck, head on your shoulder and just snuggling right up to anyone! The only person who takes precedence in the affection department is his mother! After her, anyone is fair game in his book.

When we went to leave Patti's "Barn" today, Maya gave Patti a big hug but reserved a much bigger hug though for Patti's son. He may have been slightly embarrassed at first as we kind of teased him about this but overall, judging by his base reactions, I'd say he didn't mind the attention too much either.

Yesterday (Thursday, that is), I had my regular monthly luncheon engagement with some of the girls with whom I graduated from high school and since Mandy had work yesterday and I had no one to watch Kurtis, he got to go to lunch (again) with Grammy and her friends. While Grammy munched on a really good steak salad, Kurtis polished off almost all the french fries that came with my salad. The whole time we were in the restaurant, he was exceptionally well-behaved - just being his sweet little self and entertaining the ladies too.

That's about the extent of what's been going on here the past week. My Aunt and her death which is looming here, hanging heavily around all of us, is very much bogging us down. Please send prayers up for her if you will that God will be generous in her time of need and give her rest and peace. There are not enough words, nor space, nor time for me to begin to really explain just what a wonderful lady she has always been, what a fantastic time it's been to be around her for as many years as I have and as my children and grandchildren have too. She's one of a kind, of that much, I am very sure.

I did finally get around to putting together the obituary for her that my cousin asked me and another cousin to write -back in January when she really began to fail so much. I have put it off, time and again, but tonight, after his phone call to me, I figured I'd best get it written -at least put together enough that when I see him tomorrow, I will have something for him to read and edit where he feels necessary.

Having done that now is somewhat of a relief for me as well as it was a bit cathartic to write it as well.

I'll try to return as I feel more at ease with my thoughts and feelings and for those who have already commented to me about my aunt, thank you so very much for your thoughts -and prayers.

Peace.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

The Good and the Bad

Tonight, I put through four more donations to our team for the Autism Walk held in State College on April 12th. In doing so, I noticed that our donation total for our team had grown almost $200 since the last time I had checked our team site and after putting these last four donations through it brought our team total up to $2, 013.86! Is that fantastic or what? And that figure still does not include the donation of matching funds our team is to receive from Thrivent plus, I've been told by two other people they have donations to give us too! So, it ain't over yet, is it?

I am really excited and very, very pleased with the donations our team received this year. I am also extremely thankful to so many folks from the blogging community who came out and donated to our team -very generously too, I might add! Thank each of you - no need to name names here as I'm quite sure those bloggers who supported us know how much they gave, don't you? It was certainly a tremendous boost though for our team to have received such great support from bloggers, family, friends and neighbors -even donations from people who don't know the family at all, much less my grandchildren. Our cup truly does run over!

I've been somewhat quiet lately and to be honest, I'm not entirely sure why. I have things on my mind, yes -but doesn't everyone? I'm mulling over some medical issues that I have to make a trip to Pittsburgh on May 2nd to see the surgeon who did the colostomy on me 18 months ago about these problems. The local surgeon I saw about a month ago now had recommended that I return to the Pittsburgh doctor and get his take on things. But the problem is you see, I have a hernia which the local doctor says he feels would be best if I were to have the Pittsburgh surgeon reverse the colostomy and repair the hernia simultaneously. On the surface, I know this doesn't sound like all that bad an idea I suppose -particularly if it's not going to be your abdomen they will be slicing into for the fourth time in the past five years. I'm not really all that hepped up about more surgery but I will accept it if that is determined to be the best route to take here. The main issues for me really are that I really don't want to go back to Pittsburgh for more surgery -mainly because of the distance and how disruptive it is for my kids then and two, I really DO NOT WANT more abdominal surgery because I REALLY DON'T WANT to have to do the pre-surgery prep stuff -drinking those heavy duty laxatives to provide a major housecleaning job on my intestines! Sometimes, I think it is the PREP part that I really don't want to deal with and that's what has my equilibrium all out of kilter right now.

The other thing that weighs very heavily on my mind right now concerns my aunt -the last of my Dad's siblings; the last of my aunts and uncles. Today was her 91st birthday.

Mandy finished up work early enough today that she went to the school and picked Maya up there and then, they went to the nursing home in Clearfield where my aunt and her daughter have both been patients since August 31st of 2006. In the months since they were admitted, my aunt's physical and mental conditions have both deteriorated drastically. Back in December, my cousin who has power of attorney for our aunt told me that at that time, he really didn't expect our aunt to live more than 3-4 days but she has hung on now for the past four months, somehow.
Mandy was quite upset though when she came home as she said when she and Maya went into Aunt Mike's room, the curtain was drawn between her bed and her daughter's bed and the aide or LPN (not sure which) told Mandy she didn't know if Mandy really wanted to take Maya in there because as she put it, "She's dying."

Yes, sadly enough my entire family here is aware -very aware -that our aunt is dying. But why would this person tell my daughter that and especially that perhaps Maya should not be there? You see, my aunt hasn't been cognizant of any of us, not fully anyway, for sometime now and this is what Maya has seen on her past few visits there. She isn't going to comprehend that things are more dire now than before because Maya doesn't comprehend death to begin with just yet. And, since she's seen Aunt Mike in a semi-coma state for several months now, it isn't going to change her awareness nor is it going to be a fearful circumstance for her either simply because she doesn't comprehend that right now.

This particular Aunt was my Dad's baby sister. The youngest of ten children born to my grandparents. She was a very talented pianist and organist and as such, she directed the school choral programs at the township school where she lived -and taught for several years too. She also gave private piano lessons along with having served for many years as the organist and choir director at the Methodist church just above the family homestead.

She was a very attractive lady -petite, dark brown hair, beautiful ice blue eyes that always just sparkled when she spoke to you. She was a major pet lover too -dogs -in particular, boxers! Over the years after her daughter was born Aunt Mike had four boxers -all were spoiled rotten, fed royally and treated like either a king or queen of her castle. She and my dad's other sister -who passed away two years ago this coming May the day after her 98th birthday - spent the last years of their respective teaching careers at the same elementary school where Aunt Lizzie taught first grade and Aunt Mike taught second grade. Both my aunts were extremely loving, caring teachers, each in their own way, their own right. The difference being outside the classroom Aunt Lizzie often growled about her charges, grumped about the work involved in dressing 25-30 six-year-old kids into their winter jackets and hats to send them outside for recess or dismissal at the end of the day -a job I wouldn't relish for sure, trying to zip up that many coats, tie or fasten down that many hats and scarves and the like. But inside her classroom, she was a totally different person, exhibiting patience by the mile with these little people. Aunt Mike, on the other hand, was just a sentimental soul, loving all the kids who were part of her classes over the years whether it was in person or in the teacher's lounge chatting about her students, she never complained.

When her only child was born in February of 1957, it was a premature birth and there were problems. The doctor attending her had not recorded my aunt's blood type correctly thus her records stated she was RH positive when in fact, she was RH negative. So her daughter, who should have received a transfusion immediately after delivery, didn't get that right away because of that screw-up. Also, this was back in the days before the drug Rhogam had been developed which is given to all women who are RH-negative after delivery whether the baby is a live birth, stillborn or a miscarriage. And, Aunt Mike had had a miscarriage a year or two prior to having this child which may have caused a build-up of the antibodies in her system and could be the main culprit in my cousin having been born with many physical disabilities as well as having mental retardation issues.

All my Aunt had ever really desired in life was to marry and have children -the typical white house with the picket fence, children, pets and such. She had the white house. She had the pets. She had the child. But with it also came many challenges for my aunt as she fought, tooth and nail, with doctors and therapists in her determination to see that my cousin was given every possible opportunity to learn to the fullest of her ability. And, you know what? My aunt won many of those battles with the medical community, with the education system too. No, my cousin can't do all that much but still, we -the rest of her cousins -know where she was once upon a time, what struggles she has come through too to enable her to learn, to know the things she does know and it is a miracle all attributable back to the efforts my Aunt made to provide the best she possibly could over the years for her daughter. Just the fact that my cousin has survived now for 51 years is proof enough of the excellent care my aunt provided for her daughter during that time.

My aunt has ALWAYS been here for me -from the time I was a baby, toddler, school age, teen, young adult, mother, wife and now grandmother. She's been someone who loved me without question, who helped me in so many ways over the years -to many to ever try to count -who's been there for me when my mother became ill and died, helped me raise my three children too, she did. My kids adored her -still do as do I. She was the first person Mandy and I took Maya out to visit four days after Maya was born and she wanted so much to hold her but was very nervous as she didn't quite trust her strength at the time. However, Mandy and I got her to sit down on the sofa and Mandy gently placed Maya in her great-great-aunt's loving arms so Aunt Mike could see her newest niece then, up close and personal. By the time Kurtis was born though, her health -and strength -was such that she didn't dare try to hold him at all. Shortly after, her mind started failing her more, she fell, injuring her leg which made it impossible for her to continue to stay in the family homestead with her daughter without having additional caregivers to look after both of them. It was at that point where my cousin stepped in and had them both admitted to the nursing home. Yes, it was for their best interests but at that time, that was the last way my aunt thought of this action. She was absolutely livid! It took her several months before she somewhat forgave my cousin for taking these very necessary - not wanted, but needed -steps to help her and her daughter.

And so tonight, I don't really know what the stance is with the nursing home, with my aunt's overall condition. I've heard nothing from my cousin as yet. I suppose we should call him and inquire as to what is happening but I just dread that conversation.

Things are at a point there too where no matter how much one doesn't want to part with a loved one, there are other considerations to be looked at here as well. She is bedfast, no recognition factors of family and friends, in pain, heavily medicated; no quality of life whatsoever at this point. And when you see that in a close family member -or even a friend - do you really want them to have to continue to endure all this -especially the pain aspect?

As much as you don't want to lose the person, it is also -in my opinion -very selfish to wish that they would continue to survive under these conditions. It doesn't lesson one's guilt when you think of praying for release but yet, you know this is the way that would be for the best too.

Anyway you look at it, it is a very, very painful thing for all concerned to go through this.

I will always have such wonderful memories, as will my children, to carry us through in the days ahead though of what a wonderful, talented and most of all, strong and courageous woman my Aunt has always been. I have many photos I can share with my grandchildren in years to come, stories to tell them about what a great lady she always was so that they too will know how wonderful she was and can pass these stories on to their children someday too.

Much as I will miss her presence, I would much rather not see her suffer and languish like this any longer. But because I share many genes with her, hopefully, her strength, her attitude about life in general will rest in me, in my children and especially my oldest grandson who she absolutely adored without question that she will never be forgotten.

Peace.

Monday, April 21, 2008

The Band Plays On

More Bushisms for the week ahead for those in need of a weekly dose of quotes by the infamous DUBYA (in all his glory.)

Monday, April 21, 2008 - 274 days left

"My job is to, like, think beyond the immediate."
--Washington, D.C., April 21, 2004

Tuesday, April22, 2008 - 273 days left

"The other thing the volunteers do is they welcome people here, for this is the people's land. This isn't one person's land, it's the people's land, and foreign visitors about the mountin so they can enjoy their time and leave only footprints behind."
-Wilmington, New York, April 22, 2002

Wednesday, April 23, 2008 - 272 days left

"This foreign policy stuff is a little frustrating."
--The New York Daiy News, April 22, 2005

Thursday, April 24, 2008 -- 271 days left

"First, we would not accept a treaty that would not have been ratified, nor a treaty that I thought made sense for the country."
-- Washington Post, April 24, 2001

Friday, April 25, 2008 -- 270 days left

"It's very important for folks to understand that when there's more trade, there's more commerce."
--Quebec City, Quebec, Canada, April 2001

Saturday/Sunday, April 26, 27, 2008 - 269 days left and 268 days left

"I hope we get to the bottomo of the answer. It's what I'm interested to know."
--To the Associated Press, April 26, 2000

Here's hoping you put your best thinking caps on to figure out what the heck these mean!

Saturday, April 19, 2008

Lazin' Away the Day

Saturday afternoon -things are pretty quiet now. The TSS for Kurtis was here today from about 9 a.m. until 3 p.m. so after the kids had breakfast, Mandy and Andrea (the TSS) took the kids for a nice long walk up the road.

While out, the stopped at Patti's house -the friend who brought the bunny down to visit Maya on the night before Easter -and the kids got to see some more animals. Mandy says stopping by Patti's house is like having your own private petting zoo almost in your own back yard! Maya saw a turkey today, chicks and of course, the bunny in a slightly larger version now. Seems to me they named some more animals too but be darned if I can remember them now. When they got home though Mandy had Maya tell me whose house they'd been to and had her name all the various animals she'd seen too. She did really well at remembering Patti's name and also, all the animals they'd seen.

Mandy and Andrea also had both kids out in the front yard too playing with them and with a bottle and wand to blow bubbles. Seems both the little ones as well as the Mommy involved had a pretty good time playing there, don't'cha agree?


I like how on this one below you can also see how some of our flowers in front of the house are blooming, others are coming up and starting to bud. Not the most organized flower garden in the world, but still the flowers look so pretty and springy!

This one below here is taken looking down the road -no flowers coming up yet on that side. That's Kurtis and his TSS, Andrea, watching something apparently up along the road but since Mandy and Andrea were taking the pictures while I was in the house reading, I have no clue what they were looking at there.

The past two days have brought some bad news here too though. Yesterday, Bill's father -who is 72 years old -was taken to the hospital by ambulance and admitted. They're still running more tests on him today but the initial diagnosis was that he is apparently having mini strokes which are having a huge impact on his memory. Then today, Bill learned the guy who owns the garage and used car lot where Bill works part-time collapsed this past Tuesday at his home and has been in another local hospital since then, on life support. He's only in his early 50's and this is really very bad news to hear. Say a pryer if you will for Pap and Gregg, please.

My son left Wednesday morning for a run to California and yesterday he called to say they made it to California ok but are going to be stranded there for at least two days because the clutch went out in the big truck. So he rented a car and drove over to Laughlin, Nevada to spend some quality time with his Dad while the truck is being repaired. He'll have his sisters super-super jealous with all the time he's been able to stop and visit with his dad of late.

And now, I think I shall go lay down a bit, give the eyes a little rest as well as my backside too!
The weather is starting to grey up so guess those changes I said I was detecting in my lower limbs and joints earlier are arriving on the scene now too.